When The Memories Haunt You
One morning I woke up to tears in my eyes. I found myself crying uncontrollably as a memory came flooding back in my mind: That memory was my wedding day.
I remember the joy I felt when I woke up that day. The excitement in my mind and in my heart were beyond words. I had so much fun with my friends and family and I felt so loved as I was moving into the next big chapter in my life. Most importantly, I remember the love I had for the man that I was marrying that day. To me, he was all that I needed. To me, he may have not been perfect, but he was perfect for me. Or so I thought.
As that memory, that feeling came back, the tears just flowed from my eyes. I couldn’t help but wonder why. Why did my marriage go wrong? Why did my marriage have to end this way? Then I remember all that had gone wrong. The sadness, the depression, the deceit. What I thought was my fairy tale ending, turned out to be far from it. This was a hard day. But what I took from it was this:
1. What I thought I had, wasn’t real.
What my marriage was to me was far different from what it was to him. As heartbreaking as it sounds, I have to accept that. Things don’t always go the way we plan and sometimes reality comes and slaps us in the face when we least expect it.
2. God has something bigger and better
One thing that I learned in life is that when one plan fails, another better one is coming along. So my marriage didn’t work out. It really sucks! But I know that something better is coming for me through God. I don’t know what that something may be. But I know it’s gonna be something that people will least expect. Even me.
3. Despite this failure, I’ve gained many more blessings
My biggest and greatest blessings that came out of my messy marriage are my two sons. Through them, God gave me the strength to do what I have to do to keep pushing. Through them, I was able to pick up the pieces that were left of me and get out of something that was eating me away. And since then, I’ve been able to heal, be happy, and be stronger. I sill have a long way to go on my journey. But I know that God is leading me down the right path. It just takes time and faith.
So trust me when I say that everything will be ok. Just because one thing didn’t work out doesn’t mean that life is over. It just means that God is preparing us for something greater and beyond our wildest dreams.
Remember to Always Pray and Keep Pushing!